Firstly, I wish to thank all of you who watch my account and fav my fics and pics. Secondly, I want to apologise.

As some of you may know from my last entry I was in a clear-out type of mood, and unfortunately this ended up costing me something I put a lot of effort and hard work into: my Wraith Art. On Monday evening I was going through some of the files on my USB stick and decided to delete an old Wraith pic that I had updated in another version. As fate would have it, somehow I selected not just this file, but EVERYTHING in my Wraith Art album, without realising, and it deleted it all. All my PS layers, etc are gone.

I was beside myself and ended up dosing myself with Rescue Remedy and turning to friends on GateWorld for help; and their compassion truly humbled me.

I came to realise through all of this that of late I have been working from the ego - that part of me that works mostly for outward show and not for myself. I used to write purely for the love of writing and of the characters, but lately I have been thinking more about what other people may think, and what they might like better.

Losing my files made me realise I should work from my heart, and not be so bothered about whether my stories and pics are "popular" or not. Surely if I love them that should be enough? If others can gain pleasure from them too that should be seen as a blessing, not my sole aim. Maybe by adopting this attitude and trying to be less self-centred I can start to coax the muses back.

I will say sorry again for messing everyone around. I will not delete my fics, or put them in scraps, but view them as something to build upon and improve on. I will try not to constantly seek approval through my fics, but try instead to be happy with who I am and what I write (and draw), and I will endeavour to be more grateful for what I do have in my life.

To everyone in the WWA: Thank you for your support - especially TP and Mr TP, who may be able to help me recover my files

Thank you to all of you here on dA too, my weird rant is over - for now, at least

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